Blogging is good for the soul (in my case, at least)

I don't usually say things out loud with company. So all my views and opinions are expressed in blogs. I have three blogs, one of which is this one (doysoap.blogspot.com), second is my multiply blog (doysoap.multiply.com) and third is a values education blog for school on blogger as well.

Blogging feels like freedom. I have the freedom to express and say anything that I have in mind without anything stopping the thought from going out.

I was quite shocked to find a few of my friends read my blog, but I guess I shouldn't because the purpose of making blogs is for anyone online to see.

I like blogging, it makes me feel better about things. I express better through typing sometimes. I have blogged in the past and had quite an addiction to it. Blogging, for me, is better than what I do in facebook.

About facebook, I rarely use it. I used to be a facebook addict until I realize that facebook distracts me from what life is. Life is more than viewing what others do and games. I saw a rebirth of an old love, blogging. From my facebook disease, I gained the cure from this.

Expression of thoughts is more helpful than games that distract you from other thoughts. I've decided that maybe around next week (the week before Christmas, YEY!) I'll be deactivating my facebook account for good. It's still an idea waiting for something to happen. If nothing is able to make me change my mind, then I'll wave goodbye to facebook and its cigarette like addiction.

I'm free when blogging, I'm a better person after I post each entry. I learn and see things better after posting. Hopefully I can pass this on with you, the readers, as I unfold my mind little by little with my blog.

Thanks for reading. :)
Christmas is coming so I'll say this now before its too late, MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

What Now?

I'm right now in my room at 12:33 am reminiscing on the past. I've got to say, it had been quite a journey.

Not a journey well spent, but nonetheless a good journey it has been.

I've thought about what life has to offer before anyone had introduced it to me. I've thought of existentialism before it was even thought. What I don't understand is, I can't get the answers to my questions of "What am I living for?" "Why am I here?" "Whats my purpose?"

I'm still young yes, but my mind feels its like in its 20's already. I'm affected largely by the question of "Is it worth it?" for everything that I have done and may be doing in the future.

I am at a loss of words.

Even if that's the case, I should try and find these things out on my own. I can only live once right? So why not live it to the max? I've tried to live it to the max, but life gave too many restrictions and punches to me, so how do I keep on running the race of time and life?

I've experienced much and there's few to deal with more. College is one, girls are two, life is three, and me is four. Why place me as the last? Well, living a self-less life is a priority for my being. I live for not me, but for everbody. I do not live a life made up of only me, I live it with the people who know me.

Someday I will find my place and be content. Someday I'll be truly happy. Someday I'll live my life for me. Someday, how long will you be?

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